GiG-chick © Tania B: “ HIS CRUCIFIED RESURRECTED BRIDE. . . ”
THE YEAR 2011. . .
Thinking back on 2011 this gal cannot but admit: No doubt about it – 2011 has been marked THE WORST YEAR OF MY LIFE! At the same time I have to admit, drop dead honestly, in the very same breath spoken, 2011 has also been marked: THE BEST YEAR OF MY LIFE!
I know, it does not make sense to you, but then should it make sense to you (not walking in my life-walk-shoes) , when it did not even make sense to me (walking full size 4 in my life walk shoes!) . . . crazy & mad as it might sound and be, may I dare remind you : Was this not the core-heart-picture of the Cross (you & I could never walk that walk even if we tried – we d miss the mark completely! For that very reason, us missing the mark in this life, GOD GAVE HIS SON: JESUS CHRIST OUR REDEEMER & BLESSED SAVIOUR!
His Picture of Pain & Beauty, in a single vision – snapshot, right there at the Cross . . . Right there at the grave next to the Cross . . both through the same lens - will always remain a Beautiful Mystery of Love, IN HIM who is LOVE HIMSELF! More than that may we never forget, this Beautiful Mystery of Love is A STATED FACT - A TESTED PROVEN LOVE LIFE FACT IN THE ONE – JESUS CHRIST!
LOVE IS A CHOICE . . . We either ACCEPT & EMBRACE, or we REJECT & DECLINE: HIS AMAZING LOVE & HIS AMAZING GRACE!
All thanks praise glory to THE ONE who kept me through the PERFECT STORM in 2011!
So here I am proclaiming victory & I almost feel like Mary Magdalene crying out “ I have seen the Lord” but then if I did. . . I would not have been alive to share this with you!
The tomb of 2011/the tomb of my life is EMPTY . . . Sure, when you do look around, you will find “ some of my torn linen strips lying around” (Luke 24:12)
Right inside of me I m feeling a glimmer glitter hope again! Can it be true? I find asking myself this question! Can it be . . . have I risen from the dead? Yes it is true . . . I have risen from the grave of 2011, I have risen from that cruel divorce! You thought I died in defeat on that “ bloody cross I was bearing” . . . .BUT GOD. . . now through the glory of His resurrection I m resurrected & the victory of His Cross. . . (my cross) is unveiled!
People always say “it s time to move beyond the CROSS on the power of the resurrection” Well I ve come to know THE CROSS = PLACE OF DEFEAT & THE RESURRECTION = THE PLACE OF VICTORY!
You can believe it, you can bet . . . this girl s heart had a deep incision! Therefore I rather want to share: do not regard the Cross as place of defeat and Resurrection as place of victory . . . No. Rather see it this way: The cross is the place where the battle is won and the resurrection the victory endorsed! Proclaimed and demonstrated. Instead of moving beyond the Cross I rather want to dare say to you, we need to instead of moving beyond the cross rather ANCHOR OUR WHOLE LIFE TO THE CROSS OF JESUS CHRIST!
My friend, believe me, when your life is anchored to the Cross of Jesus Christ Himself in HIMSELF, you ll find He will pour down Resurrection Power in your most powerless hour! In this process this girl has become His Unquenchable Flame!
He has dissolved all my doubts completely!
A wave so high and dangerous in the Perfect Storm threatened to not only take me out of the sea of life, but also from deep sea fishing for Jesus! BUT GOD. . . I held onto Him with every breath I had, HE was the surfboard I was surfing the waves on! Then in the middle of the tsunami-wave HE whispered into my ear “ PEACE BE WTITH YOU” & at that exact moment in time I let go let God . . . I just rode the waves as I held my peace . . .even though it felt to me I was seeing a “ ghost” & almost as if the voice though I knew it so well it felt like a “ ghost” . . . (Luke 24:37) Trust me, Jesus did prove His Highest Identity to me as He in that Perfect Storm slowly opened His robe to me, revealing to me His wounds, in His Hands, in His Feet and in His Side. (Luke 24:40 John 20:20)
One gaze moment in time with Him as never before was enough for this girl to be pierced all over again in my own piercing . . . in His Piercing! (Zecharia 12:10) I could not but weep bitterly! (yes bitterly is the word . . .best described too!) I m sure this is what happened to Peter too . . . why? 3 days earlier just as he was speaking the rooster crowed. (well whilst I was speaking . . . the rooster was crowing in my life too!!) The Lord turned looked straight at Peter there and then ( well I do believe when the rooster crowed in my life too right there and then Jesus looked straight at me!) Luke 22:61 . His gaze I believe was there and then observe fixed on me!
Can you imagine what this did to Peter . . . can you imagine what this did to me! No you cant! I experienced it first hand , I ll be the one telling you, so can I tell you: A blade cut through my soul as much as it did through Peter’s soul! That one look in the Perfect Storm spoken volumes to me, a trembling disciple! Why!? The blade that cut my soul was when HE said to me “ Tania, do you, of all people, abandon Me when I need you most Tania? Could you not stand with Me, Tania and help bear the suffering of My Cross . . . . “ I fell at His Feet (CRYING AS I M TYPING HERE re-living the moment forever in time beautiful engraved into my heart in gold with His Presence”
This girl was broken by that gaze . . .. those words . . . more than my life storm could break me, those words broke me! I went outside to the river close by my ONE ROOM CHALET where I m living so content so happy in basic living no sign of luxury . . . in fact! At the river I sat for the next 40 days each day weeping bitterly (Luke 22:62) Trust me I saw the wounds of The Lamb far above the wounds of my own flesh & soul! My heart was tender & raw with repentance that swept through me and flood me supernatural! I looked deeper and deeper and deeper into those wounds crying out more and more “ HERE EK BLOEI!” because the deeper I looked into His wounds the more my heart bled . . . (PS: and for the first time I understood most clear why the book “ HERE EK BLOEI” had to be the second book from my pen in His Hand, not the first! GiG-chick “ God is Genoeg” is just so right . . . so on time . . . so in time . . . so from His Hand His Heart)
Be warned be assured, you ll cross me in 2012 somewhere on the face of this earth, in His service at service! However be warned: you ll find me “ on fire preaching as with Pentecost” WHY? Because my own heart has been pierced by gazing at the Pierced One in a Perfect Storm . .. or was it a Tsunami! Whatever! Be assured when this girl will open her mouth in 2012 to be His Mouthpiece “ hearts will pierce” (Acts 2:37) I have been prepared for this, for a time such as this! Called by my name meaning queen I will rule in His Kingdom with His Authority & elect call which the gates of hell cannot prevail against! God s wind did not blow through me, it s blown over me & into me!
The smoke did come and rise up in my life BUT GOD. . . it only reached His nostrils! Myself, my whole life, everything I had, everything I am, was on the altar burning when His Holy Spirit wind came and swept over me, my life, my all! Trust me, the JOY I have is not JOY OF WINE but JOY OF THE SPIRIT IN THE LORD (Acts 2:15) !
When I wanted to move CITY base He said “ ….. behold Tania (LOOK TANIA . . .) I will send forth upon you what MY FATHER has promised BUT TANIA remain in the city (Jerusalem ) “ Capital where I am PRETORIA
I have become His Upper Room, where He dwells with such Presence from on HIGH! A place where I m so filled with His Glory breathing His divine essence! He has come and clothed me from on High with High Power! In my own broken denial of such high Power in the Perfect Storm I trembled under the Spirit s Power!!! I became aware of it, alert. I even saw a vision of thousands gathering for NEW WINE REVIVAL exploding forth from the Upper Room just as it was on Pentecost for a time such as this! (Joel 2:28) SO what did I do? I rose & step out to the balcony in 2012 where a living force fills my breast! I ll open my mouth, I ll boldly address the multitudes, I ll charge them with the crime of crucifying Christ as I did to my Messiah! With all the power of the Holy Spirit in my every word in His Word = His Mouth, HE will thunder “ you with the help of the wicked men, put Him to death by nailing Him to the Cross!” (ACTS 2:23)
The Sword of His Word will drive into hearts! His message will rise to a crescendo as He will prepare the Final Sword Thrust! With burning lips and blazing heart this girl will shout “ God has made this Jesus, whom you crucified, both Lord and Christ” and when they hear this He has shown me they will be cut to heart asking me “ what shall I do” then I ll pray with them so NO ALTER CALLS – THEY WILL COME TO THE ALTER AND CALL FOR THE ONE = JESUS CHRIST THE ONE AND ONLY MESSIAH MY MESSIAH!”( Acts 2:36:37)
What was THE LESSON OF MY LIFE IN 2011? Simply this: “ LOVE WOUNDS” ! I ve come to realize that we must have hearts that are piereced for the Lamb, for it is in our piercing that rivers of revival will flow! The piercing begins when we open our hearts to receive the Lord as Saviour BUT as we BEHOLD THE LAMB, the CROSS OF JESUS CHRIST drives the knife deeper, releasing the PENT-UP rivers within. Wigglesworth was right when he said “ Revival springs forth from a heart that has had a deep deep incision of the knife of God, which is the Cross of Christ, to the point of “ circumcision of the heart” (Romans 2:29) you can believe it this girl had a deep deep deep deep deep deep deep incision of the knife of God! His blade also cut my soul deep deep deep!
Yes, even my alabaster jar box filled with perfume had to be broken to lease it s fragrance in 2012! My heart had to be broken through immense tragedy in 2011 & through the piercing of The Cross! Like grapes, I ve been crushed to release sweet wine from inside, new wine, new label wine gushing forth from the inside to the outside a river of revival in Glory Himself!
The veil was not lifted . . . the veil was torn & here I am: GiG-chick Tania B “ His Crucified Resurrected Bride” in His service at Service with GiG High Power!
How sad we always pray “ O Lord tear heaven & come down” (Isaiah 64:1) I choose to say “ tear your heart not your garments” !!! Jesus own flesh was torn to release glory! Well this girls flesh was torn for glory to be released in 2012! Now the extent of revival gushing forth will depend on the depth of the cut into my heart & the blade into my soul! With the incision of the Cross in my heart!
I somehow want to dare say: I do believe that which pierces the deepest is a focused gaze into The Fathers cup! Our human flesh recoils from this look because it HURTS for it pierces the heart to the core where nothing is left but all is gained in one gaze in time!
I m calling out for God s fire in 2012! SUDDENLY . .. He promised me it will come! I m expectant I m prepared His queen for a time such as this chosen with an elect call. . . a tough call for a tough girl in His Strength!
Be assured to see THE HIGH POWER OF GOD in 2012 as never before!!!
No eye has seen no ear has heard what God has prepared for us who love Him and are chosen for His Purposes for a time such as this!
Believe me the wound of this incision I ll carry forever.
My sin & the sin of those who have wounded me deeply I saw crushed down on Him! I watched the wave of God s wrath burst over the Son of God Jesus Christ ! I saw His Love wave break the wrath wave! Bitterness dissolved into tenderness & compassion indescribable! The hardness of heart died in greatness of God so great!
I see faces blushing glowing in the Presence of God in visions! I see many tears filled with shock and disappointment as they gaze into The wounds of The Lamb for His deep incision heart cut & blade to cut the soul!
2012 it is no secret I have been instructed whenever I pray with people as they come they ll stand with hands on their hearts . . .. teams will be alongside to pray with me because you have not seen anything yet when the HIGH POWER OF GOD IS RELEASED TO GUSH FORTH & CUT HEARTS!
SA we cannot pray for the FIRE OF GOD before THE PEOPLE’ S HEARTS ARE NOT PIERCED! Sorry but God is God of order so let s do it right & see real continuous revival instead of revival tides and waves!
My heart was breaking, I reached out to His Hand, grasped His Hand in the Perfect Storm. I helped Him thrust the final sword into my soul! I received it! I drew it into my every chest area! I embraced the piercing! I let the bitterness blade cut to the quick of my deepest deepest deepest feelings, my most hidden feelings motives. I let all other motives fall away except ONE. LOVE MOTIVE!
My highest purpose, my deepest yearning, my one driving motive be this: to bring Jesus the reward of His suffering for drinking the Fathers Cup!
I continued to let the sword cut deep into me, for as long as I knew it needed to go for the work to be done.
“ It is in the wound that the fire dwell & remain” It s an inquenchable flame that will never never never never never never never burn out!!!
God is Genoeg
God is Genoeg!
God is Genoeg!
God is Genoeg!
God is Genoeg!
God is Genoeg!
God is Genoeg!
“ die chick vir wie God genoeg is”
GiG-chick Tania B
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